Isolation

Isolation...

It is a very common word that introverts use very often in their day to day life... but why? Do they love being alone? Or they prefer being alone? Are they scared of people? What is the reason that god exactly knows...

But what if they are not introverts exactly... the experiences forced them to be instead... actually!! There is a possibility that this would have happened.... but lets not go there... here lets talk about the isolation...

Basically this is not maiden in some cases but it just happens for instance "if you are hell talkative in nature and having so much to chatter and blabber which you usually do around your friends" and then they suddenly they starts behaving being busy or leaving you, and now you are too alone finding no one to talk, it leads you towards two situations either you will find a person close to you in your family or you will just stop talking to anyone who is around you... and believe me you get habituated with that and you learn a good thing that is having fun being alone and that's a good thing no wonder... but then few people walks in trying to figure out the problem with you... they talk exactly your taste of things, few common things and BOOM!!!.... blast off for the very precious thing you have learnt.... your fun being alone is now has been replaced by fun with others.... now here you think this is right as you have to walk with the society but something is there you are messing up with.... and you know what is that?? Yes it's you.. you are messing up with yourself because what happens next is. people leave you when you need them the most and then you have no other option besides smiling and letting them go.... you come over with new people meeting them over face to face or on social media... and then the cycle repeats... Social media that's the main villain in your story here you meet people who seems to be much interested in you by a constant reply over your message or making positive response over your posts... hell yeah!!! That damn irritating post which you find nothing worth of when you look back at it.... this is thing where you start falling... falling so badly that you never see what exactly you are doing.... your talkative nature has began to rise again you are finding your mates over it you are finding your best friends you are finding those who are understanding you at every aspect who are encouraging you as you mean a world to them and those who are coming online just to have some chit chat with you.... but what next ??? Let me tell you now what happens... time changes... your inbox is not fetching new messages anymore... your inbox doesn't have that one number or one name which use to be there all the time at any time of day... now the problem arises because till now you are habituated to share that every single thing with that one particular person who suddenly disappeared... disappeared as if he or she was never there... and congratulations!! now you don't trust anyone and don't talk to anyone and now you have turned out into a depressed and anxious person, now those empty inboxes make you realize that... that's what you are... that's what you were at every moment since beginning.... Alone .... all alone... and so alone that you are tired now... and you are talking to everyone just to make them believe that they are not alone... what you are trying to do is just to secure them from the feeling you are going through... till now you know how it feels... feeling being so alone that when you need someone besides, you find nothing but a dead social account and a silent phone which doesn't matter either on silent mode or General... because you know it has hardly one person whose ring will be there otherwise its just a dummy model which doesn't even vibrates LOL...that's exactly how isolation can be felt and yes this leads you to being an anxious, yes that leads you towards being so insecure about your self and your emotion... so what??? Does this mean you are going to allow everyone to return?? NAH!!!!  It won't happen because you are tired now... my dear you desperately need a break from people to heal yourself.... you are not an idiot to be the person who you are or who you were.... not even sorry but... you are just protecting everyone that they shouldn't feel what you have felt.... nothing will happen that empty inbox will lead you to distract from the world which created a misery for you... and that's OKAY... but don't feel sorry for yourself because you did what was right and they did what was their part.... moving on a roads leads you to meeting numerous of people but that doesn't means that they are going to be with you in your journey.... those who would like to accompany you in your adventurous journey will hold your hand unknowingly and walk with you along the dangerous paths as well... they will understand very well that when you want to walk silently without a conversation and when you need to get crazy all the way along.... If you are waiting for the same then Bravo!!! You are a positive soul... but if you wish to go back!!! On a single voice by the one who left long back.... then my dear.... YOU NEED TO GET A LIFE....

"Choose that one road which leads you towards the destination

Not the one walking on which you feel like you should go back" 

"If you are tired take a break, doesn't matter how long as it totally depends on the level of being tired because mental tiredness leads you towards taking wrong decisions"